blog 2 (half of each)

2006-12-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

i have been away for perhaps too long. i have no idea what is going on anymore. perhaps i should just stay away..

so lost. might as well just be away so that i wun noe. it wun hurt me, will it?

it is not that i dun care. mayb it's just that i dunno how to.

i will shut this blog soon.

"Mine ancient scars shall not be glorified/Nor my titanic tears the seas be dried." (the end by Wilfred Owen)

2006-12-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

sobs.

just lie on my back. float on water. the ocean. follow the current.

sometimes i just feel like closing my eyes and just sink. hide. drown.

i imagine these things. i get lost in lost in e thgs i imagine once in a while.

2006-11-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

too blue??!

i think so too. oh well. it doesnt matter la i guess. i will be searching for a new blogskin soon. if i dun use it, i will probably do a bit of editting so dat it will be to my liking. most prob, i'll just change the pic la.

fri - OP.

gd luck to all~

2006-11-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

wakaka... updated the other blog.

am currently thinking of changing the blogskin. or mayb just the picture. see 1st.

2006-10-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

so promos are over. results on 23rd and on 30th we'll get to know if we're promoted.

anyway, i recently went to newgrounds to see some flash animations. came across a rather nice yet freaky and twisted animation - Lilium. i gotta say i kind of like it. i already told sk to go and watch it and since im blogging abt it, im telling u ppl to watch it too. hehe. so sk, if u have yet to do so, im making things easier for u. i mean u dun need to go n search for the link any longer. heh.

oh yea.. i like the brackenwood series by Adam Phillips too. great animations. wonderful. really. so professional. (okay, Phillips is a professional - former Disney artist) so go and watch the whole series. only 4 so far. my fav of them would be prowlies at the river. go watch and find out why. oh yea, the yellow, fat creature is cute.

Phillips also has other flash animations of coz. i've yet to watch them. dats coz they seem erm..scary. whether they realli are, i haf no idea. i want to watch them tho. mayb can do so w skae n all in sch some time soon. heeh.

oh yea, if ure surfing around newgrounds for nice flash animations, look under those "all time top scoring" ones. dun just watch any of them coz some are just eww in the not-so-pleasant way and u may just be wasting time waiting 4 the animation 2 download and all.

ppl facing promos or a's or o's or EOY exams, all the best~

2006-09-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

I AM

I AM: yet what i am none care or knows,
My friends foresake me like a memory lost;
I am the self-consumer of my woes,
They rise and vanish in oblivious host,
Like shades in love and death's oblivion lost;
And yet I am, and live with shadows tost

Into the nothingness of scorn and noise,
Into the living sea of waking dreams,
Where there is neither sense of life nor joys,
But the vast shipwreck of my life's esteems;
And een the dearest - that I loved the best -
Are strange - nay, rather stranger than the rest.

I long for scenes where man has never trod;
A place where woman never smiled or wept;
There to abide with my Creater, GOD,
And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept:
Untroubling and untroubled where I lie;
The grass below - above the vaulted sky.

John Clare (1793 - 1864)

*~*~*~*

interesting poem. makes it more interesting if you know about Clare's background and his situation when he wrote this poem.

2006-08-28T03:28:00.000+08:00

i am actually amidst completing or rather editting the chapter 2 of written report - literature review. i decided to take a break, short break of perhaps 10 minutes. and so, i cannot exactly say that i am amidst doing the lit review rite? hmmm..

anyway, i think i am hooked on coffee but not as bad as mom. i would crave for it once in a while but unlike mom, i can afford to give it a miss. it doesnt affect me. but rite...when i do drink coffee, i would want another cup after finishing one. but hey, coffee is nice! thinking of trying the iced choc mocha (or sth liddat) at starbucks one day. its expensive i know. so i guess i wun get it anytime soon. its okay~~

onto other things........i am very busy rushing hw or basically work that is related with school these days:
pw - written report (mon)
gp - reading file (wed)
chem - prepare for SPA (tue)
then.. of course there's the never-ending tutorials. i have some overdue ones:
phy - waves
phy - superposition (not exactly overdue, yet)
gp - *ahem*
maths - 1r and 3r (hehehehe)

so there... now im doing the written report. still more work to be done. hehe.. cant wait 4 teachers' day of coz. it marks the start of the short (and to make it worse, packed) break. still look forward to the break lah..coz altho it will be packed, there'll be time 4 me to rest at least. (i hope)

on teachers' day, i'll get to meet the ex-bpians. (=

h3

2006-08-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

and so........i cant do H3. not identified. bt well, my CT told the class that the selection time is extended to promos. coz they were able to identify only 6 or 7 ppl in the whole cohort who made it thru the criteria..

oh well... promos arent gonna be easier in any manner.

and yes...the other tagboard has been now made available again for u guys to tag and talk nonsene once more. so enjoy. =)

2006-07-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

instrumentals. nice instrumentals.. any1 has them? tell me.. :) thx.

2006-07-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

my 3 sets of 50 became simply 50........

haaha.. shd have known more. =P

2006-07-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

hmm.. since kyl asked my to blog.. here~~

actually i cannot thk of anythg ~~much~~ to blog about.. but well.. lets just list down a few thgs:

Extra daily thgs that im doing and trying to keep it up:

3 sets of 50 twist crunches
read something other than ppl's blogs. (something w good english.. thk i'll just read sth on "msn today" or sth)
eat veggies

Things that im starting (or sort of) to do and trying to keep it up:

frequently go to the gym
drink more water (as best as possible - plain water)
being hardworking, studies-wise!! (heheheheee)

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hmm.. well.. u noe wad..? i dun thk im able to keep up w most of those thgs listed, but i hope gym-ing still goes on eventho i may end up 4getting abt doing the crunches one day. i mean if i were to choose btwn them, going to the gym would be my choice coz its more beneficial as a whole...

lalalallaaa...................i find no peace in a war but sometimes in peace, there's a war.. hmm, so much 4 the peace and tranquility.. look in deeper.

im a boy!

2006-06-22T08:56:00.000+08:00

u noe wad...it just occured to me... my skin features tennis (in a way..coz of the anime)...but my previous entry was abt badminton.......................

ytd.......while taking a break from studying at the balcony of fc cc.. i heard some little kid shouted, "boy! boy!" think he was calling some1.. so i looked up to the 3rd lvl and i saw the kid.. then i looked arnd.. hmm... there's no one else but me.........

lolx.....

badminton

2006-06-11T11:37:00.000+08:00

yea.. badminton.. played badminton ytd w sk, hc, xy, kw..

it was fun i gotta say.. but in the beginning, all of us were rather rusty. long time nvr play u c.. hehe..

oh well.. badminton... hehe.. a game that brought us together. well, u can choose to view it that way.

4 me.. badminton is sport. (DUH). hehehe.. ok.. i started playing when i was in wvps. became quite good at it. made in into the sch team.. but we got trashed! hahaha.. o well, doesnt matter. i enjoyed playing~ so losing doesnt matter much (i thk)..

then..bla3... yada3... now badminton became a sport that bonds me w others... well at least it's a way to spend time w other ppl... and it's still a fun sport to me no matter wad.. so well~~~

hope to play w u guys again... and kw, if u still drop by at my blog.. read this... i will try to trash u someday.. bwaaahahhaa.. (i doubt i can do it tho.. haha.. nemind2..)

a whole new skin

2006-06-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

yes yes... a whole new skin...

and yes! i finally got my Prince of Tennis (POT) skin...

introducing the characters up there to you readers... =)

from left to right: Echizen Ryoma, Kunimitsu Tezuka, Syusuke Fuji, Eiji Kikumaru

*smiles widely*

hehehhe.. alright.. there are more characters.. but well, i cant find the same kind of pic of the other characters and COINCIDENTALLY these characters here are my favourite... hehehe..

fine.. almost all the guys in the anime are my favourite.. hehehe.. =p

anw, although i still have yet to change the skin of my other blog, i posted an entry there. so you can go check it out, but bewarned...in that entry, i boasted and bragged a lil abt me and my achvemnts. hehe.

to end this entry...let me introduce you people to a SEIGAKU cheer... wad's seigaku? hehe.. u know those POT characters up there? well, they are a few of the main chareacters and they are from the seigaku tennis club. it's their school tennis club basically. but their full school name is actually seishun gakuen, so i guessed it's been shortened to seigaku. so yea.. here's goes (i heard this from the anime itself and i laughed. y? go figure. but think that its quite cool they even have a cheer for an anime. hahaha).. oh yes.. i do recommend POT to any anime-lovers:

S - E - I,

G - A - K,

U can say:

hey!

seiga~ hey!

seiga~ lets go!

my reflective journal on terrorism

2006-01-31T10:35:00.000+08:00

yeapp.. this is my reflective journal on terrorism.. had to do it 4 my gp lesson.. yea.. it's 4 the IETL day... anw... hc deserves some credit too.. he helped me out u c.. the 1st line is his.. good english agree? yea.. he also gave me ideas on wad to write next n so on.. so.... *claps 4 hc* thx agn.. hehe..

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Terrorism propelled itself to the attention of people who were once unaware of this term, which was once only the concern of government agencies. The September 11 incident and the Bali bombings were a few of the major incidents which opened the world’s eyes to the horror of terrorism. Terrorism is the unconventional use of violence for political gain. In their hunt for political gain, these terrorists harm innocent lives, their own family members included. What puzzles me is that some of the members of the terrorist groups are actually highly educated. Taking Azahari Husin (a member of JI) as an example, he was an engineering expert and former academic with a doctorate from University of Reading. As such, I wonder why these people actually join the terrorist groups. Surely they know what is right and what is not. Sadly though, somehow, in this current world there does not seem to be any clear distinction between right and wrong. I guess this is why crime as a whole takes place everywhere.

Existence of the Islamist terrorist groups has caused some parts of the world to view Islam differently. As a Muslim, I feel wronged about this and I am sure other fellow Muslims feels the same too. This is because these terrorist groups use violence and kill in the name of Islam when Islam does not teach to kill. In fact, I believe no religion in this world does that. However, thankfully, the lives of Muslims in Singapore have no radical change. No discrimination of any kind. This is because Singapore is a multi-racial, multi- religion country and I am grateful for that.

wad wud u do?

2006-01-27T21:44:00.000+08:00

ever suppressed some feelings to urself? i thk every1 has gone thru dat b4, at least once. agree?

well.. wad did u do?

hmm.. did u tell some1 abt it eventually? did u express urself in some ways? or just kept it in all the way?

if u told some1....did u say out everythg dat's on ur mind? did u feel better aft dat?

or did u just let out enuf to release urself from the unbearable tension inside u?

hmmm..........i realise.. i havent fully express my anger/angst/melancholy ever since dat time. negative feelings... it's bad to keep em in u, i noe dat.. well, im still alive tho. haha. wad i've been doing is dat i've expressed myself (not fully).. and at other times, when i feel quite overwhelmed by those feelings i do thgs to make myself feel better.. hehe. clever eh?

..or am i just running away? haha.. so this is another thg dat i've been wondering. when i feel melancholic, i'll listen to some music. is dat an attempt 2 avert my attention to sth else? or am i simply making my melancholy dissolve in those instrumentals i listen to?

haha.. tag ur views on this.. thx.. hmm, smtimes i just wonder wad i shd do...

do u noe?

2006-01-27T21:36:00.000+08:00

hmmm... do u noe???

lolx.. do u noe dat i haf a total of 63 entries (this one included) in both my blogs??

this one has 31 entries.. n the other has 32.. lolx.. im gonna blog 1 more entry here to make both blogs haf 32 entries each.. hahaha.. =p

16 Jan

2006-01-16T20:20:00.000+08:00

arh......... damn it. damn it. damn it. damn it. damn it.

efffff....

oh anw.. im getting an eye infection. haha.

new skin

2006-01-15T10:56:00.000+08:00

look.. it's a new skin.. haha. ok dat's obvious~

anw.. well.. i found this skin. thought dat it's kinda farnie.. and so decided to show it to all of u and the only way to do so is to of coz put it on my blog. n tadaa! there u haf it~

toilet ppr.. hahaha.

ok.. but yea.. since there is such a skin..................do u thk there'll be a skin on toilet bowls? (actually.. thk i got see b4.. n it's a v bloody one) wad abt sinks then? n wad abt other stuffs like fans? haha.

n well.. 4 those who are wondering whether this skin will stay 4 long.. the answer is no. recall, purpose of this skin - to simply show it to my blog's visitors. hence, i'll change it to another skin someday soon. (provided, when im not lazy of coz)

anw.. yea.. long time nvr blog.. i do tag tho'.. n if u wanna noe abt how 2006 has been so far, go n read my other blog.

cya around~

p.s/ dun 4get to use toilet ppr horr..it's hygienic! (altho cleaning ur ass w water is better).. oops.. dun mind me being so direct. haha.

my personality

2005-12-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	12
your best quality is	youre easy going
your worst quality is	sometimes you want perfection
this is because	youre true to yourself

Quiz created with MemeGen!

wow... look.. a TWELVE!! hahahaha.. im good.. haha. n the perfectionist part is quite true actually. haha. easy gg.. hmm.. rather i guess. (tt explains me slacking ard a lot) but the true to myself bit.. hahaha.. n so i took another one...

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	8
your best quality is	youre intelligent
your worst quality is	you need to relax...alot
this is because	youre unique

Quiz created with MemeGen!

yay.. im intelligent.. haha. an eight isnt dat bad either.. hehe. the worst quality part..haha..can be soooo true at times.. lolx.. oh yea.. i got other results when i put "Ili" and "Ili Mahirah"... but most of em seem to give me an 8 for personality.. lolx.. so give it a shot... like sk u can put "SK" or "seow ken" or "Seow Ken" instead of the current one dat u haf rite now.. lolx.. do tell me ur results!!! hehehe.

What will be your Harry Potter life?

2005-12-27T19:44:00.000+08:00

What will be your HP life? by Doom_Song
Name
Job	Teacher
Partner	Remus Lupin
Death	poison

Quiz created with MemeGen!

What will be your HP life? by Doom_Song
Name
Job	Unspeakable
Partner	Severus Snape
Death	Run over by damn muggle.

Quiz created with MemeGen!

hmm..lupin.. err.. i dun like him altho he's nice i guess..

and so i did the test again.. lolx..

snape. o well.. he's cold.. n dat's cool.. lolx.. but so far i thk i like the way i die, supposed death i mean.. hahaha.

hmmm

2005-12-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

ok.. i am in no mood to blog.

lazy.

the end...

i'll blog abt the NS story some other time... n i'll blog the whole end of yr thgy as well... just check both blogs la.. ok?

i am just too foolish. haix.

probably no meaning to it

2005-12-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

it was clear, unbelievably...

we were at the roof of some building. we just reached but everyone was there.. well, at least i had the feeling dat everyone was (altho i only saw a few ppl).

then some ppl gave me cards n letters. i din read them. just held on to them.

soon, i felt all the more sad but i was putting up a strong front. hehe.. but then i asked myself, "y dun i juz express myself?" aft dat i quickly recalled dat there had been regrets for not doing so. i felt a sense of loss.

i went to you and i weeped

and hoped.

but you just let go n walked away from me.

it was then that i cried more. i ran to you and to my disbelief, i found you crying much more than me.

it was all so clear. it was coloured and they were rather distinct too (the colours i mean). i nvr had such kind of dreams before. will more than half the time dream in faded colours. but haish..to thk i'll dream of this............. i was so tired ytd (of painting.. n hc, once again..it's the door. lolx) that when i turned in, i just fell aslp. o well....

according to narutofever.com.......

2005-12-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

i like...............

Your results are in! You love the carrier of Shukaku, demon from the Sand. You're intrigued by how psychotic he is, how he kills for the sake of killing, never hesitating to taste blood. You're probably pretty much a little of a psycho yourself. You also feel so sorry for him that he never felt love before. You want to show him that there are people who love him. Beware though, he might get so excited at the prospect that he's finally receiving love and just kill you.

sry fad.. haaha.

i like psychotic guys? lolx.. wad crap.. n im psychotic? haaha.. actually i thk i am.. masochist n such la........ mwaahaaha... beware of me.

heh.....im psychotic. wow.

my webpage is on........

2005-12-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

What is this? [+] Created by 3.99 Anime Shop and NarutoFever

how the day has been

2005-12-19T19:48:00.000+08:00

ugh....im stoning away.....

hmmz... well.. ytd nite.. ok.. i slpt rather well.. it's juz dat.....y did i had to wake up at 3.30 am in the mornin?? haha.. funny thg was dat i thought it was 5.30.. lolx. found it hard to go back to slp aft dat.. that was bad...coz it set me thking. thinking rite now isnt gd 4 me. haha.

o well.. went back to slp at i dunno wad time then woke up at 8+.. coz my bro called me n asked me n my sis 4 our NRIC. i can rmb his.. y cant he rmb mine? lolx.. bad brother.... lolx. then well, my sis went back to slp. i cant of coz.. my mom wasnt even awake yet. haha.. so wad did i do? nth.... juz lie arnd in the living room.

soon.. well.. yea.. the day went on..... i always do the laundry. haha... so well.. did dat too.. dumb me, this time round.... lolx.. my washing machine is one dat has the clear circle opening at the side.. well.. i juz now.. haha.. hmm.. i was pressing the start button (not all the way tho) when i realised dat the circle door thgy wasnt closed!! lolx.. whoops~ so yea.. lucky me i din press it all the way to start the machine. i wanted to kick my ass, reali! aparently, i cudnt. i tried u noe. haha.

well.. anw.. soon aft dat, i helped mom to cook, as usual. i cant blieve dat i had my tears welling up when my mom was right in front of me juz dat her back was facing me.... ok.. wow. but well.. mom din notice. haha. go me! yeaah..

hmmz.. cant blieve dat i went weeping away in the living rm when my mom was still home. i dunno how it happend. lolx.. mom was in her room. my sis was out. she had a haircut.. not bad~ her hair dye stain is still on my wrist, juz not as clear anymore.

sk called. we crapped of coz. sry to juz break down on u twice. haaha. oh yea.. thx 4 the call.. i was bored. nth to do.. haha. oh yea.. did wad u told me to.. slpt. actually, i cant exactly rmb wad i did. i noe i had the tv on.. then the nxt moment i found myself waking up from slp n i wasnt even lying down. i was juz sitting n was slping. dad was home. told me to lie down n slp. did dat..

soon aft i woke up, my bro came home. cardcaptor sakura season II was on at animax.. i suddenly totally 4got sakura's bestfren's name. i tried rmbing.. failed of coz. pathetically, i asked my BROTHER, who doesnt even watch it. "Tomoyo isnt it?" wow. yay bro. hahaha. i shd be ashamed. hahaha.

finally.. went to my bro's rm to get a packet drink.. haha. as soon as i got the drink and closed the door of the fridge, i dropped the drink. yay me. haaha. i gotta pull myself together.

so now..im here. yea.. lolx. n there's someone out there shouting i dunno wad thg. if he's trying to piss ppl off, he juz have to go on a bit longer n he'll be doing a gd job.

haixx.. wondering abt u..

2005-12-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

i nvr saw it coming.
i nvr did.

n now i look back again n again.
thk of those times.
...

i weep.
i weep.

happiness. mere joy.
fun.
sadness.
pain.
stress.
depression.
i've been thru all of it w u.

i feel cared n all.
i wish thgs cud juz go on.
i wish i can sit bside u..
n look at u..
..n be happy dat im w u

o well... i guess im juz the sore one here. wanting to hold on longer....

thx dear.............

drop me a tag or sms if u want me to stop publishing this entry.

2005-12-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

lolx.. ok.. wow. i'm like bcoming a fan of this "there she is!!" series. lolx.. anw.. yea.. kept watching the 2nd one.. its funny. haha.. sorta made me miss him more, somehow. n i like the song (altho i dun understand it much). then the 1st one.. haha.. so funny. but it's sweet (despite the serious case of obsession). hehe.

"a pair made of cat and bunny, interesting love is in the air" -Zeratul Luke (took this from http://www.sambakza.net)

oh yea.. u can juz click on the pix to view the animations~ i thk it's made using flash 8.0 instead of wad i said b4 (which was 5.0).

the bg songs are in korea.. but this animation..well..the characters doesnt speak. n there's not much words la. so it's ok... hehe.

(i cant blieve im doing this. hahaha. knda like crazy abt this series. haha.)

2005-12-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

yo peeps!! my bro juz graduated from BMTC school~. (go figure wad's BMTC. hehehe).. well.. the whole experience is cool la.. of coz not the bit abt gg thru BMTC. haha. i meant the whole POP thgy. yea.. my bro is in the leopard company and he's in platoon 4. but dat doesnt matter now does it? i mean he POPed le.. hahaha..

anw.. yea.. he once told me (and my mom) this particular true story abt the BMTC school.. ok la.. bein specific, it was abt the grenade-throwing exercise. it's reali sad actually... but o well.. i'll blog abt it some other time~.

...er... which reminds me.. im supposed 2 blog abt prom nite rite? lolx.. lolx... =P im so lazy. haha.. well.. lets see.. i'll juz blog a bit.. hmmz.. the food was nice.. then.. some ppl REALI look nice.. then some girls REALI dressed up.. haha. (i thk he looked gd dat nite.. hehe.) then..well.. the video was cool.. got this particular pic of me, kam, syaza n sk near the victoria theater there, posing w a lamp post n looking up into the sky. haha. i wore all black in the pic and it was taken at nite..so well..i camouflaged myself. hehehe. anw, the video was cool. rather nice i thk... but of coz i still thk dat the ROD video by adeline rox the best.. ahaha.. ok.. the emcee.. hmmz.. weird la.. he's chinese rite? but he seems to haf difficulties pronouncing chinese names. o well..doesnt matter.. haha. n i thk the no "yes", no "no", no "aahh", no "err", no "umm", no "i dunno" game was cool.. seems challenging n fun. haha. ikhsan. wow. he did reali well and he was funny. "black is my fav colour"..."sometimes blue"........... lolx. he was gd. haha.. then talking abt ikhsan..hmmz.. he n nasuha... they were sweet. the questn is...do they like each other? haha.. no one noes...(mayb not yet? lolx). o well.... they were reali super uber sweet. hehe.

ok...

yea.. actually.. reason 4 bloggin this time round is this.............i found this nice n rather funny webbie... click here. this link will bring u to the webbie tt im talking abt of coz.. it's a website tt takes in all kinds of movie/games tt are produced by ppl like u and me n who are more professional, using flash. i thk flash 5.0.......anw.. it doesnt take long to upload the page dat's showing the game/movie. i recommend u all to view the works dat are classified under the heading "TOP 50 OF ALL TIME". they rock. reali... especially "There she is!!!" and "There she is!! step 2". it's funny. reali. hahaha. give it a shot. =)

so well.. cu guys~ tk care.. n hmmz.. anw care to organise some outing? im bored........

2005-12-04T18:59:00.000+08:00

today.. haix.. bloody hell.. freak..

ok..restart.. apologies 4 the language btw..

today..........
i was being pushed around. yay..how fun.
was a nice day w a great weather and all but i did nothing. yay..how great.
i had a headache. more of a spinning one. got this coz i lay around too much. but o well.. it was a wonderful experience.
i was pushed around time and again.

bloody hell..

haix.. yes.. yes.. im sry to everyone for being the person dat i am.
and i wud like to apologise to my dearest and loving sister for stopping her from disturbing me!!

ugh.

go away......juz go away and leave me for now..

2005-12-02T14:37:00.000+08:00

certain things dat i just feel like doing suddenly:

go esplanade there and juz sit around looking at the water enjoying silence
walk around at the singapore river
go eat a nice ice cream (mayb at swensen's? got anywhere cheaper?)
just walk around anywhere (even mayb from my hse to cck)

ok. tt's it. haha. thk i dun mind doing em alone. haha.. anw.. i haf some cash w me now la.. but wun do it today.. mayb tmr? or monday? (sunday isnt good u c.. coz there'll be a lot of ppl everywhere i thk).. i'll see. hehe.

*~*~*~*~*

ok.. here's a question:

how fast does it take 4 someone to change?

ans: overnight

*~*~*~*~*

haha.. ok.. dat was random. anw.. ytd night had prom.. prom queen - valerie and prom king - eric.. yay you! haha.. anw.. well..thk i'll juz blog abt prom some other time.. mayb later or even tmr.. i'll c.. haha. anw.. thanks 2 all of u...!!

semuanya sudah berakhir~ (translated : everything has ended)

unlimited - aikawa nanase

2005-12-02T02:36:00.000+08:00

unlimited - aikawa nanase

deai ha arashi no youni otozurete watashi no kokoro kaete shimau
isshoni ireba nanimo kowakunai kono sekai no owari sae

wakari aeru koto mo wakachi au koto mo utakata no youni
toki no suna ni magire tsukami kirenai to akirameteta anata ni au made ha

"dore kurai itami wo hitori de kakaete kite tano?
dore kurai sabashisa hitomi ni kakushite hohoen dano?"

deai no kiseki wo ima dakishimete mitsume attara tsuyoku nareru
kore wo ai to yobanai tosuru nara ima, dore wo ai to yobu no?

"kimi ga omou youna hito dehanai ga mo boku ha shirenakute"
sore demo kimeta no ha kono omoi no mama eranda koto ni nanimo kuihanai

kono mama de jikan ga tomareba fuan mo nai noni
kono mama de, ude no naka eien sagashite hitomi wo tojita

deai ha mahou no youni isshun de mune no itami mo keshite shimau
kore wo unmei to yobanai tosureba ima, dore wo unmei to yobu no?

deai no kiseki wo ima dakishimete mitsume attara tsuyoku nareru
kore wo ai to yobanai tosuru nara ima, dore wo ai to yobu no?

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ok.. i heard this song from animax of coz. it's the opening song of the anime samurai 7. well.. when i 1st heard it..i din care to listen to it properly.. i paid more attention looking at the lyrics (there was the english translation of the song as the thg was being played) at the bottom of the TV screen. well..i liked the song from then onwards.. then i paid more attention listening and the song is quite nice aft all! haha.. ok.. here's the japanese lyrics.. its hard 2 get the translated english meaning.. but when i do get em, i'll post it up. it's reali nice i thk. as in it's sad yet cool.. haha. o well.. i dunno wd 2 say le.. haha.

2005-11-24T07:55:00.000+08:00

harlow everybody!!! hehehee

yoz.. long time nvr blog. haha. apologies. ok? sry la.. i dunno y.. now like v lazy to blog.. then also dunno wad 2 blog abt.. haha.. at the same time i muz bear in mind dat got a number of ppl actually read my blog.. so muz reali consider thgs a bit properly..

anw.. yea.. o's over.. (im slow at this) haha. it's over 4 every1.. even the combined science students.. now the thgs that ppl (or rather my frenz la...) talk abt r the pae and abt prom (esp regarding wad 2 wear. hehee)..

pae.. well.. im gg pj.. yea.. sorta made up my mind.. my prelims' L1R5 is 17 (b4 bonus) or can also be 13 (w bonus.. 2 for cca and 2 for hml ba).. so yea.. looking at the jc's L1R5 for the 1st intake (which is w bonus), i can qualify 4 8jcs (science stream).. but my aim is to go njc la.. since i cant make it, might as well go pj.. hehe. its near.. so at least its convenient. hehe. then if im not mistaken, a number of my frenz are gg pj 4 the pae as well.. so dats cool. hehe.. but yea.. there are those dat dun qualify 4 the pae.. ermm.. i am actually quite jealous of u guys la. haha. coz rite...u can chill and rest ur brain 4 a while longer n its like u haf no choice but to do so (haha.. how cool is dat.. lolx).. but yea.. im sure those ppl do feel upset actually 4 not able 2 qualify 4 the pae. anw.. i reali hope thgs wun change ever, where friendship is concerned.

then.. prom.. hmmz.. im afraid i'll overdress or will look 2 formal 2 haf fun.. haha. o well... im not spending much actually.. all i need 2 buy is a shawl. dats it. haha.. n of coz.. wud be spending a bit 2 alter the dress.. but dats it.. im spending more on presents 4 my frenz.. haha. currently im bz w making cards 4 everyone.. ok.. they are almost ready.. juz need 2 cut here, cut there n paste thgs here n there.. dats all... but of coz the interior is still empty.. haha. havent write anythg yet.. then im making cards 4 29ppl.. hmm.. bsides tt, im also making gel candles 4 i thk 22 ppl? then im rushing all these actually.. coz i wanna give it 2 my frenz on prom itself.. i mean, if not, when? as 4 the gel candles, im buying the "wax" (its ultimately a candle waaad) tmr.. its ok la.. i thk i dun need 2 ask u guys 2 come along. coz im meeting a fren. im meeting firah at plaza sing itself.. so yea.. hmmz.. then these are the thgs dat i need 2 buy:

~~1. shawl (i dunno where 2 get one.. any1 any idea?)~~ bought this at chamelon for $6.90
~~2. gel candle "wax" (plaza singapura - spotlight)~~ bought 1 packet of it for $34.95 and $4.49 for the wick
~~3. essential oils for the gel candles (bt panjang plaza - guardian)~~ this costs $15.90
~~4. hair spray (oooh ya..my hair is getting longer. then hair gels dun work. n its not 4 any event. i juz want it. haha.. can get this at any watson shop)~~ hehe. 7 bucks..

but o well... number 4... dun need 2 rush 2 buy it la.. hahaha. hmm.. then currently, i haf abt 30 or 40 bucks i thk.. i hope its enuf 4 the 1st 3 stuffs.. o well...

anw.. to all... njoy the holiday~ tk care. n plz do urge me 2 blog more often.. hahaha. ur encouragement is very much appreciated. thank you. (lolx..)

2005-11-05T08:22:00.000+08:00

sheesh... its been a bloody long time since i blogged. hahaha.. lets slap me.. ready? go! *piak, piak, piak, piak, piak!!*

haha.... ok...

o well.. anw.. o's has begun. hmm.. started off w chem prac 4 me.. which was quite ez actually. alhamdulillah.. then it was phy prac.. din manage to do the extended q.. the planning thgy i mean.. but o well.. n yea.. fiq msged me on the nights of both pracs.. dun ask me y lah.. i dun even noe. my rplies to him..if u read em, u can tell la tt im damn reluctant 2 rply but was trying my best to stay polite.. haha. but anw.. im saying all these coz i found out from him dat 4 their phy prac rite.. they had to heat their own water... 4 us, we had a couple of heated water points in the labs.. so this is like weird rite? i mean its the o's.. shdnt it be the same nationwide? or dun tell me ctss dun haf enuf kettles n such.. lolx (shit.. i sound uber mean here.. o wad the hell)

hmm.. ok.. then i had my hml paper too.. ok.. i wasnt reali happy abt it.. its because my command of the language sux.. 4 my ppr 1.. every now n then i had to flip open the kamus n search 4 a particular word to see if it does exist n check whether my usage of it wud correct. wasted damn a lot of time 4 it.. so in the end.. i almost cudnt finish.. my ending was damn abrubt n there was no proper conclusion to the whole story. haix.. but thankfully, ppr 2 was better. at least the perkataan bbagai makna wasnt so bad la.. hmm.. then i noe my imbuhan dah salah dah.. i hope there's no chain reaction to the whole thg, if not.. 10marks gone. then the peribahasa "ukur baju di badan sendiri".. i din get tt either.. so 2marks more gone.. alahai.. sedih seh.. macam no hope gitu.. haixx.. pasrah. pasrah. nak reda je tapi masih sedih.. itu bukan reda tu.. haha... o well...

hmmz.. then its sat now.. 2 days from now on... it'll be monday.. o's starts proper from here. will be having emaths ppr 1 and ss.. oh.. i sure hope i can do ss.. *say prayers*

o well.. anw.. its also raye now.. so yea.. to all who's reading this... ili here would like apologise and seek forgiveness 4 every wrongdoing... mood-swings.. n all those other bad thgs that has been said n done.. i hope you 4give me so dat i can continue being human n err. lolx!! crap. hahaha. kalau tak, takle hidup lah gini. n of coz selamat hari raya to all. do come over when o's are done.. be it 4 raya or juz to hang out n watch movie or sth..

hmm.. sempena hari raya.. terima lah lagu ini (padahal seni katanye je. haha) yang kitorang asyik nyanyikan bersama tarian ciptaan sendiri:

Suasana Hari Raya

Berlalulah sudah Ramadan, sebulan berpuasa

Tiba Syawal kita rayakan, dengan rasa gembira

Anak muda di rantauan, semuanya pulang ke desa

Ibu dan ayah keriangan, bersyukur tak terkira

Bertukar senyuman dan salam, ziarah-menziarahi
Tutur dan kata yang sopan, saling memaafi
Suasana hari raya, walau di mana pun jua
Memberi ketenangan, dan mententeramkan jiwa

Kuih dan muih beraneka macam
makanlah jangan hanya dipandang
Ketupat rendang sila nikmati kawan
penat memasak malam ke pagi

Wajik dan dodol jangan lupakan
peninggalan nenek zaman berzaman

Asyik bersembang pakcik dan makcik
hai duit raya lupa nak diberi

2005-10-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

i hate insensitive ppl... but today, this time round, im the insensitive jerk.

n i din even realise it until i was told abt the thgs i did..

dearest kw.....
im reali so sry.
i dunnoe y i did sum thgs.. like the hp thgy.. i din mean it to be so srious. i had nvr minded u taking my hp n all.. n i nvr will mind.. n abt the specs thgy.. im sry too. thk i wun hit u ever again.. haha. me..abusive.. tsk3.. tt's not gd rite? i shd be nicer~

i cannot blieve i am so affected by ur words.. by wad u said.. they werent harsh or hurtful words like vulgarities or wad haf u.. (lolx) n the whole incident wasnt such a major one either.. but i felt so damn affectd.. i feel so lost n unsure.. its not dat i feel defiant n angered, wanting to defend myself n those sorta thgs.. i dunnoe y i feel so low but it made me sink in my thoughts............ lolx.. almost 4got to got off the train at cck mrt statn... took a petir service lrt but 4got to switch to a senja one at bp statn.. in the end had to juz take 1 big round n was late. not scolded tho'. haha. n hey.. it isnt ur fault here.. its juz me, wanting 2 figure out y i feel all these.. mayb juz down right guilty n afraid.... fear dat u'll juz go away...

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to the rest who reads this entry.. hmm.. i wud be grateful if u guys juz ignore it... hehehe. (im juz being a jerk again am i not?) o well.. im sry~ hehe. anw.. grad day was ytd... sadz.. but at least we did play ytd.. played w water balloons... n we had fun despite the sadness in parting.. haha.. tears... o well... i luv u all.. juz wait 4 my prezzie... (i need enuf money 1st la to buy em.. hehe)

2005-10-20T08:22:00.000+08:00

haixx.. im a bit pissed at myself nowadays... i get lethargic so damn easily.. then i wun wake up for sahur.. n when i wake up in the morning later on.. i'll juz be pissed w myself for being such a lazy person.. y cant i juz wake up at the time i want n then go wash my face or sth n then start work?? haix.. simply wasting my time slping away... damn.. it seems like my mind has no control over my body.. haixx.. damn pissed...

anw.. ytd.. took lotsa pix.. gosh.. i cant blieve i posed 4 some pix.. haha.. even acted cute w syaza for some of the pix.. haaha.. i cant blieve myself.. btw kam.. i checked my email.. takde pun.. anw.. i'll upload the photos once i get my hold on em...

o well.. today.... yay!! ok.. not so yay.. coz i woke up late.. shit la.. feel so wad man.. like im such a lazy person liddat... haixx.. but anw.. yay a bit... coz i found my entry proof.. hahaha.. so yea.. at least i can record the exam dates down at my november calendar n start preparing schedule for tt month n end of this month... so yea... =)

hehe.. o well.. i gotta go n do some work now... i must.. sleeping so much makes me feel guilty u noe.. haha. hmm.. then will be gg 4 chem later on.. n then will be heading home, only to head to fc later on.. hehehe.. but o well.. i better get some work done.. haixx.. i wonder wad work to do.....

2005-10-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

yo...... i've got my 2nd online album up liao... not much pix tho... coz they're all in my hp!!! haha.. hope to get em online soon, sumhow~

cu.. im gg fuchun liao...

2005-10-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

wow.. im bloggin.. wow.. haha. (the bears are soo cute. but er.. rminds me of faz's bday present dat i owe. hehe)

anw.. long time nvr blog liao.. lotsa thgs happend.. like 4 1 thg...prelims over liao.. i did well i thk.. i mean im happy abt it.. L1R5 - 17.. i noe it can take me nowhere, but im proud of myself.. however, of coz there are ppl who did better than me and worse than me. those who did better than me, gd job! u shd be proud of yrself. if u said ur grades arent gd, i feel so damn dumb to be happy for a mere 17 then. haha.. anw.. yea.. im studying for o's now.. so gd luck 2 me. n my frenz too of coz..

hmm.. then bsides dat.. my bro is at ns liao.. he's in the army.. platoon 4, leopard.. sth liddat.. n yea.. currently he's talking to my mom on the fone.. my mom misses him like hell.. o well.. the only son aft all. but yea... thgs are ok btwn me n the whole fam. ok means no more fights or quarrel.. but well.. thgs arent quite the same as b4.. i used to be sooo closed w my mom.. well, aft juz this 1 incident.. sumhow, 4 sum reason, i juz dun wan 2 be so close animore.. but nonetheless, thgs are ok. =)

then.. yea.. im so oliviating.. haha.. its from shakespeare's twelfth night's character - "Olivia". lit students might noe wad this term means.. oh yea.. aimi noes.. coz she invented this term... sk noes.. then faz also noes the meaning of this term/word.. haha.

hmm... this fri.. 21 of Oct.. its our graduatn day.. sadzz.. but yea.. 4 yrs.. its ending soon.. lets not talk too much abt this.. im gonna bring a cam!! i noe kam will be bringing 2 cams!! go kam w ur cams!! lolx.. (lame la...)

o well... i'll try not to be lazy n update more.. cu guys.. tk care. do tag.

2005-09-24T09:44:00.000+08:00

mats and minahs.. hah.. i dun like them.. i reali dun like them..

i reali wonder abt their purpose of life.. they act cool.. they try to look good.. they flunk their studies and heck abt it.. n they offend ppl and yet they thk they're right.. n sum even tarnish the image of the society and the nation... mats and minahs come together, haf sex.. the minahs get pregnant.. they either abort and kill a life or they throw their babies away in some remote places or they juz quickly2 get married to cover up the shame of pre-marital sex dat they had.. then aft marriage, v soon divorce.. *bleargh*

ok.. maybe my sentiments here are v strong.. but i reali dun like them... sumtimes when i enter the lrt...there's a grp of minahs standing ard together at a corner.. they'll look at me n stare and give me dat so called fierce look... hey, i shd be the one giving u a fierce look.. i din even do anythg to u...

anw.. i juz cant understnd them.. mayb u guys juz wanna follow some culture.. old school.. or punk or wadever... i dun care wad u guys wear... (as long as they're appropriate n not over-exposed)...but at least dun go ard staring at ppl... or flirt ard w each other at open places... or tarnish the image of the society and nation.. in fact.. wish u all cud contribute.. try to go to higher institutions and be successful in life (but then again i wonder wads ur definition of dat).. if u all are, u can follow wadever culture for all i care..

o well... i juz dun like them.. hahaha. mayb im being too subjective here.. haha. heck...

2005-09-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars

Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost

Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began

Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars

Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost

Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends

2005-09-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Riku Hayashi

What's your Japanese Name?

2005-09-17T10:47:00.000+08:00

lizards and cockroaches.

lolx.. ok.. this entry shd be typed n published ytd la.. im late mah. =p plus lazy as well.. anw, ytd got home v tired.. then juz slp lorr. haha. to janice, thx 4 calling sk 4 me.. hehe. i was half alsp.. then i scard if i call her, i wud be talking nonsense to her (i dun mean crap here. lolx).. yea.. thx janice.. u v nice.. hehehe.

anw.. yea.. abt lizards n cockroaches.. haha. actually shd be cockroaches n lizards instead.. ytd, at cck control statn.. while waiting 4 the rest.. (me kam jan there liao. jan juz came). got this cockroach crawl here n there.. i thought it was gonna juz go away.. then turnd out tt it sorta like wan 2 crawl towards me liddat.. hahaha. i thk i got a bit scared la.. haha. coz im afraid tt the thg wud crawl to my leg..bla3... eww... so went 2 the toilet at the mrt statn.. hehe.

then at fuchun.. haaaha.. sat near the pond there.. yea.. exactly where i sat last time. hehe. then i noe the place got lizards la.. but they usually dun reali come close to me.. so it was all ok lah... but ytd, got 1 lizard.. not v far from me... (ok.. it was QUITE far la..) but it was at the pillar juz in front of me.. b4 tt got another one.. but it crawled somewhere else.. so doesnt matter la.. coz i dun mind.. hehe. (in fact it's better isnt it? lolx).. but then this one.. it was like facing downwards.. towards me in fact.. then crawl down... i freaked out.. hahaha. =p so ran away again.. (to toilet yet again) hehehe

o well.. i dun mind if u all wan 2 laugh at me abt it.. hehe.

anw.. today got tuitn frm 1.30 to 3.. aft tt.. im not sure if i'll be gg out 2 study w them.. they go fuchun there again... i still thk its a nice place la.. but i juz dun reali like the study room.. too quiet i guess? can say it sort of easily disrupt my mood.. 4 studying i mean.. as in like do 1 chpt (or 1 part of a chpt) then keep wanting 2 go out liddat.. so yea... the pond there is nice.. kfc also nice.. but cold.. but yea.. overall, the place is nice... (juz like me.. im nice u noe.. lolx.. crap. crap.)

2005-09-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

gone lah. gone. so far had hml, english, ss, amaths (1), lit (1) and emaths (1)..

i thk my prelims gone liao. 3mths joint admission exercise can 4get abt it i guess.. at this rate.. it seems like my prelims is gg 2 be the same as my mid-yr. how sad... and my L1R5 for mid-yr was 22 i thk. (cant even go jc lorr)

i wanna study.. but like cannot liddat.. haha. talk crap. not making any sense at all right now.

hmm..lets see tmr i got physics.. both pprs. wow. o well.. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.. hehe.

anw i thk talking abt studies nowadays is like dpressing.. haha. o well.. hasnt it always been this way? lolx. but i guess i'll try my best no matter wad. hmm.... as 4 other thgs apart from studies.. got wad else... like nth liddat.. hmm.. seems so rite?

note to frenz.. hmm.. mayb im being crazie rite now la.. but juz wanna say if i ever got offend u all b4, apologies..... (this is reali random. hehe) to sk... u rawk. hehe. lets blow more.. lolx.. n u wanna noe sth? i like you... lolx.. jkjk.. haha. crap ah! =P to kw.....hey anythg, u can juz tell me k? dun be down. i'll be glad 2 listen n help if possible... to the rest.. gd luck 4 prelimxx altho it sux!

2005-09-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

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Staying within sight,

Being under the same sky,

Hoping this wun end.

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lolx.. sth i composed myself. its called a haiku. i thk i did quite follow some of the rules. esp the 5-7-5 syllables thgy. haha. o well.. enjoy. hmm.. n 1 more thg.. the taggie rite.. like got prob liddat.. the site from which i got it from.. seems 2 be down 4 the time being.. quite sad la.. coz i reali thought the taggie is nice. haha.

2005-09-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

i shdnt push my luck animore. ya. o well.. i got scolded by my dad (kinda) coz i got home late today. i told him (actually more of my bro la. haha) that i wud be home by 9+. but i got home at 10.30 instead..

actually its my own fault la.. i noe that. (wow.. im being sensible here.. haha. RARE case. hehe. jkjk) but ya.. recently always go out .. then go home also rather late.. everytime my dad has 2 call me n ask me wad time i'll get back n he doesnt sound angry.. so i always pushed my luck the next time i went out n come home a lil later.. but this time kna scolded la (kinda). so i thk shdnt do this animore.. altho i do wanna spend my time w my frens.. they make my day u see..

hehe.. juz now quite farnie. had fun.. lolx.. hc, i hope u upload the pix.. then send 2 me horr.. alrite? hehe. thx. n ya.. thank you guys 4 making my day all the time. u rawk! hehe. n sry 4 my dpression juz now. thk like wad janice said, it's stress la. sure hope so.. stress i thk is better tho, than being lost in the slow sorrow.. it eats u up inside slowly.. i mean it's reali like wad lor to juz wake up one morning, sit at ur desk n juz start crying suddenly 4 no apparent reason.. hmm.. i shd fight it, like wad mum said. shdnt juz let my feelings roam.. (but sumtimes u juz cant help it rite? like 4 example suddenly finding urself drawn to a certain person.. or also like suddenly craving 4 sum chocz.. hehe).. hmm its all the concept of "ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa, ikut mata leta". yea.. direct translation wud be... (lolx) follow ur heart u die, follow ur feelings u get destroyed, follow ur eyes ure disgraceful. haha. my translation not that gd la.. lolx.

i wonder if tmr we'll be gg out 2 study again. that place v nice actually.. not like cc liddat. haha.. o well.. it was rather nice juz now. today i mean... hehe.

wishing upon a star...that i wun suffer dpression again. weeeee~

2005-09-07T15:55:00.000+08:00

hey lo... yayz.. thk this blog is quite properly done up. yayz!!

whoosh.. finally got the anime skin that i wanted.. n its quite nicely done up too. agree? anw.. i like ryoma.. cute. haha. he's the one w the bluish-green hair.. n he is rather cool as well.. the guy in specs is the only person that can win ryoma in tennis n his name is tezuka.. sk finds him cute. hehe. n ya.. this skin suits my blog tittle doesnt it? lolx.. haha

o well.. im gg 2 go and play badminton soon now.. yayz.. cant study3 all the time.. muz play also.. gonna play at my hse there.. got me sk jan xy kw n hc.. lolx.. more girls.. this is quite rare la nowadays.. hahaha. o well.... cu.

i miss ryoma. my star

2005-09-03T10:09:00.000+08:00

funny name? the url i mean.. sry la... i also dunno wad 2 put. lolx.. so yea... and the other one. the fragment thgy... dlete by accident. haha.

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